Health Insurance

Today is my 3rd day without health insurance - I left my job in preparation for a relocation. I stockpiled various meds in advance and got the reassurance of my therapist and psychiatrist that they would help support me, but to be reliant on my meds and self alone without any medical specialists is kind of unnerving. I'm also petrified of paying for meds out of pocket - I know that many do, but it certainly isn't cheap! I think it scares me that I will most likely be dependent on meds to function for the rest of my life...

Unfortunately meds can't fix everything. I'm learning that while I'm nice and polite to strangers, I'm harshly critical and demanding of those closest to me. I throw tantrums when I'm distressed and obsess over things to the point of unhealthiness. I suppose these are the things that therapy is supposed to fix, but it's so very hard when you're dealing with reflex reactions as opposed to premeditated ones. Quite often, I can physically feel myself fill up with an unpleasant emotion that just overtakes me. I literally cannot regain control of myself. When I try to hold it in, it eats at me like acid and makes me ill. I wish there was a med for this...there probably is...