Nerves

I had my first real choreographic audition today. I haven't choreographed in 3 years. It was interesting to observe my anxiety overtake me, first with negative thoughts, then with shaking hands. Even as I type, I am still shaking, although whether from nerves or lithium (don't you just love the side effects of lithium?) I don't know. When the negative thoughts overcame me, I was sitting in the train and I wasn't sure whether to turn to CBT or DBT for help. It was kind of like "Should I mood monitor or should I be mindful? Change my thinking or completely empty my mind?". At that rate, klonapin might have been more useful, based off of what I hear, but my anxiety probably wasn't at the level that most people with anxiety disorder have. Ultimately, the audition went well, although the negative thinking kept racing through my head, throughout the audition, and followed me out the door. I think I better keep working on my CBT skills...