I've reached an interesting point in my anhedonia - I am obsessed with finishing/completing things. For example, if there's a book I'm reading, I'm not satisfied until it's been finished. Or a plate of food - I barely notice what I'm eating just, focused on cleaning the plate. The problem is that I don't enjoy the process along the way, meaning that I am rarely ever relaxed and in the moment, nor do I get any entertainment or satisfaction from an activity. It really makes life feel slow and chuggish.
Sleep has been off too, lots of waking up in the night or periods of insomnia. It's not quite like being manic, where I have racing thoughts or still feel perky the next day, but it is weird because I can't stop being agitated. I hope it stops because I am getting really tired.
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