Inner Strength

So it hit me today that we are almost halfway through 2009 and that my disorder has consumed most of it. At first I was mad because I thought to myself "What a waste of a year". Then I realized a few things. First, there's still another half of a year left to go and so long as I'm striving for healthy habits and haven't ended everything, half a year in stasis won't kill me. Then I thought about the fact that I still managed to hold onto my job and was grateful. After that I realized that I had: 1) taken the GREs when I couldn't read and done respectably, 2) applied for and got into grad school, 3) choreographed a solo after years of not choreographing, 4) got into a concert with said solo, 5) joined another dance concert, 6) still had a loving boyfriend, 7) discovered what was wrong with my back, 8) found some medications that do more than past ones have.

Not so bad after all.

Now the question is whether I have the strength to get through things from here on out because it's about to ramp up pretty hard...